I knew a side of Lori that nobody else got too see. That sweet funny girl from Tennessee. In Later times i also saw the the depth of her pain and how it manifested itself in her life. Porn was just a way for her to say that she was in control of her sexuality. When we were on the road during her reign as Miss Nude U.S.A, it was a magical time for her and i was the proud girlfriend on the side loving her. My realization of her world slowly crept in and i began to distance myself from her. I protected her, in a sense from, guys like the one who took her life, by being there with her every step of the way, and as soon as i turn my back some deviant is able to take her from me. Im guilty of abandonment. Now i cant ask her to forgive me. I need to find a way to honor her and i believe i have just the thing. Before her untimely death, she was working on some music. She had been taking vocal lessons and had enough to fill an album. I happen to be a singer. I want to do one of her songs for her. I want her to be able to hear it as she sits in heaven where nobody can hurt her. I will find a way to make sure she always knew that i loved her. Leah